Sandy (Lanphear) Krause
It has been just over 24 hours since I sat holding my dad’s hands and being in his awesome presence as I watched him take his last precious breath of life. My immediate family was gathered around this wonderful man who had given himself to the globe, spending his almost 75 years soaking up as much knowledge and earth as he could and then giving it back to all of us through many different experiences so that we could learn and continue on through his teachings. He was truly one of a kind and we will miss him daily. but yet remember that he would want us to carry on with whatever makes us happy.
One of his community family members said to me that there are teachers and masters, and that Dad/Fred/Grandpa or whoever he was to you, was truly a master-someone who just being in his presence could teach you something, big or small and that is what he did on a daily basis. Since his ALS diagnosis, he had decided that he would teach us how to accept, live with and experience dying with a terminal disease with such grace and acceptance that while I grieve for the loss of my dad, he allowed me to share in his daily pain and help him through it and for that I will be forever grateful. I only hope that I could decide that when my time comes that I could be half as strong and brave a person as he was.
I could go on but wanted to share that small part of my thoughts with all of you who I spend my daily moments with. To all of you who knew my dad, He loved everyone of you as his own and all he asked of all of us was to “carry on with your journey ” and enjoy your life! He loved, was loved and continues to love all of us through his spirit!! I love you DAD!
This was written on Saturday Sept. 11, 2010. My father was hoping to make it to his 75th Birthday but alas, his body could not hold out any longer. The Seattle ALS Walk for the Cure is on Oct. 2, 2010 and it would have been his 3rd walk. This year’s walk is going to be very somber compared to the previous years walks. He was such a motivator and an inspiration to everyone. He will be missed by family, friends, and the world.
Wanted to thank everyone who has sent there comforting thoughts my family’s way these past few days! We will continue to confront times of sadness and loss but his spirit and image is truly in just about everything I look at. He was called by many different images: Gentle Giant, rock, grounder, man of the earth, earth elder, but most of all he was my father. I would like to dedicate this song to him.
Your loving daughter,
Sandy (Lanphear) Krause